Life like bubble of water

life is like a bubble of water...it has a specific time period after that it finishes just like a bubble of water which vanishes like it was never there....one day sooner or later we will die and after that with in a week even our family will forget us and after that no one will know we were even there and its a fact of life...i just realized that life is short and we take tension of tomorrow ,some are dying to get job,some are having depressions and anxieties,some are worried of their children's future,some are struggling to do what they wanted to do in their life(including me)...in short i want to say is that most of the people i see around myself are not just living the present moment of life...its so ironic that we are living a life with a little happiness and more with tension and worry...life is a bubble of water we should live it as it should be,so that at the time of death we should not take any regrets in heart.

Four year journey

Today I got my bachelors degree and I am feeling very happy because it was a very long, testing and tough four years journey for me…the story starts with my first semester….. I was very confident student with a high self esteem and self respect but who’s going to know that in coming years I have to face very crucial time  and as the time passes  first I realized that the course I have to study is not of my type or somewhat on technical side like it had mathematics and programming etc and I always used to hate maths specially…so as  the time passes I started getting low grades (as expected) and at the end of first semester my self esteem and self respect was very much damaged and with damaged respect i start losing my confidence because I started seeing myself as a looser… with the start of second semester I decided firmly that I will study and aimed for scoring good grades so that I can be in good books of all my class mates but nature has its own plans for us…so at the start of second semester my father suffered a swear heart attack (and I didn’t really told anyone in class & now I wonder how fool I used to be)….at that time I lost complete focus from my studies because i used to look after my family business in morning and used to attend classes in evening and I was really unable to focus on study  and at the end of second semester  i was not only fail in one subject but I was also came on probation….with the start of third semester I had two challenges to deal with one was to score some good marks so that university can’t kick me out and the other one was to gain back my self respect and self esteem so that I can walk and talk with my class mates confidently and proudly. It was a very tough time for me I used to think of if & else situations like if I hadn’t took admission in this course or if I am unable to get good marks then university will throw me out and many things like that…I used to think “if” committing suicide is not harram(illegal)  then I would had done that and many other things like this….but I proved my self to be tough enough and I scored enough marks to continue my study…with the start of fourth semester nothing was really changed except that I start writing articles on blog and started expressing  my feelings ,frustration and thinking…fifth ,sixth & seventh semester’s were  alright because I started scoring marks and some respect plus some self confidence………sixth semester I was totally torn apart from inside because my self confidence was broken in pieces , I was like a boy looking for someone to help me  understand me and motivate me…from sixth semester onwards I tried my best and scored some very good marks in many subjects and with the start of my last  semester i started feeling quite confident about my self  and now when I am graduated I am confident as I was in first semester….just thinking what I got and what I lost..

Free Your self

You know what there will always be someone willing to hurt you, put you down, gossip about you, belittle your accomplishments and judge your soul. It is a fact that we all must face. However, if you realize that God is a best friend that stands beside you when others throw stones you will never be afraid, never feel worthless and never feel alone..
before you can live freely a part of you has to die. You have to let go of what could have been, how you should have acted and what you wish you would have said differently. You have to accept that you can’t change the past experiences, opinions of others at that moment in time or outcomes from their choices or yours. When you finally recognize that truth then you will understand the true meaning of forgiveness of yourself and others. From this point you will finally be free...

What I Say to Myself

You know what...Whenever I get worried or whenever another person makes me worry, I remember the lines of a famous sufi writer (and a former bureaucrat). And when I do that, I manage to smile and move on. The writer said that whenever an individual is worried, whenever he feels perturbed or helpless, he should say to himself a particular English phrase — and if he does that, it will help. And that English phrase is ‘let it go’.

At first, I was quite skeptical about this whole exercise — how could simply saying a phrase alter how I was feeling at a particular point in time? However, I tried it and was startled by the results. For instance, if someone was rude to me normally I would flare up and get angry but before exhibiting that sentiment I tried saying ‘let it go’ over and over to myself. And lo and behold — the anger that had surfaced in me soon subsided and I was able to move past it.

Now, whenever someone is rude to me, or puts me down, or makes a fool of me, or takes away my rights, instead of getting angry and seeking revenge all I do is say this phrase repeatedly to myself and it becomes alright. The more I thought about my reaction to the use of this phrase, the more I began to realise that most of my issues and problems have an ‘expiry date’. Now this can vary from problem to problem but if I act patiently, not react in a negative manner and wait out the said period then the problem automatically gets resolved.

As for the writer who came up with this phrase, it is none other than the author ofShahabnama, Qudratullah Shahab. His autobiography created a stir not only in Urdu literature but also in contemporary society so much so that there will hardly be an educated person in Pakistan today who has not heard of him.