Some Thing Inside From Heart

 I've looked out a lot of windows and watched thousands of people. I've loved...and lost in love. I've lived happiness and experienced sadness. I've dealt with deep pain and shared deep thoughts. I lost my best friend and had best friends who lost me. I lived in a negative world with suicide on the tip of my tongue, but my mind decided to focus on the positive and let Allah make that decision for me. I have a personal relationship with my Allah, because no one knows me like he does and no one cares like he does. I am real and I am me....I'm still not sure who that is, but when I wonder about myself, I smile. I've made it this far and....... I've come a long way...
Right now, there are people all over the world who are just like me. They’re lonely. They’re missing somebody. They’re in love with someone they probably shouldn’t be in love with. They have secrets you wouldn’t believe. They wish and they dream and they hope, and they look out the window whenever they’re in the car or on a bus or a train and they watch people on the streets and wonder what they’ve been through. They wonder if there are people out there like them. They’re like you, and you could tell them everything and they would understand.
 

What we Are

You know what there are about 18 million people in this country and each one them have their own Islam and they think their Islam is right....Just like that one of my teacher in university whose Islam seems to start with beard and ends on Jeans..He thinks that Wearing Jeans and pants is not allowed in Islam because it is a dress of non believers and we should not wear it ....  you know i can literally prove it  that its not like that but leave it i am not gonna get into that....okay fine even if he is right, problem is one half year passed and no one changed accordingly and doesn't listen to the respected teacher teachings by heart at all why???

The answer is because he him self lacks some basic things of religion, humanity and character which are also very important from which other think how good human you are and consequently a good Muslim, like he is an intolerant man he often show anger on small things like once he betrayed and abused our class Cr badly....he even doesn't have tolerance to respect and listen to other point of view,he thinks what he think is right and that's hell of a bad thing its self....he is also not equal to all the students in class like once in exam i asked him about a question given in exam and he said "i dont know" and after few minutes when same question was asked by female topper of the class he guided her now what is this,...he said to me recently"don't argue with me" now what is this? this can't be one sided otherwise no one will listen to him..In Islam back biting is also strictly not allowed but we do it anyway, in Islam telling a lie is also a sin but we daily lie on small small things,in Islam smoking, drinking ,bad thinking, is also not allowed by we do it any way. In Islam snatching others Right is also not allowed and many many more.Islam is a complete way of life it is not limited to jeans and pants there are other things too.

Tell me "if one person who is having beard and wear "Islamic dressing" but he is not tolerant to other people and hurt others feelings,who doesn't respect other point of view and is also not fair and who back bit on people and lie and who doesn't care about his neighbors and do other wrong things is "Good" or the one who wears jeans and does not do anything mentioned above...

The thing i want to say is that we need to show some character first...if you analyze first 40 years before Rasalat of Prophet Muhammad(P.B.U.H) he first developed his character to people..

why our approach is so Rigid and hard and not flexible....there are many examples i can cote here about flexibility in Islam but leave........(to be continued).

Ashoka Rocks

You know what the city where i live have some real historic things to see and whenever I see those historic things many questions pop up in my mind and with those questions i always feel so low at times….one of those historic things are Ashoka rocks which i often see coming back from university to home.Ashoka rocks were built by king named as Ashoka around 5000 BC.

On those big monuments king ashoka commandments are carved in sanseckrit language.now i often pass by to those monuments and think that this place was there 5000 years ago and its still there the mountains located here are still there a stream behind those rocks is there by by don't know how many millenniums and i think 5000 years back people like us were living here and up to now millions of people have born and died and many of them were very great than us in their own way but now in today's age no one knows who they were?and then i think one day just like those people when i die,shall my name vanish like millions of those people before?this thought makes me sad but also motivate me to do something in life before it end like umera ahmed said "zindagi main ap ke entry jaisi marzi ho exit shandar honi chaheay,dramatic,tragic,naqabil e faramosh"...and summing up with the words of Haidar ali Atish:
                                                         "Na gor-e-Sikandar, na qabar-e-dara
                                                          Mitay naamion kay nishaan kaisay kaisay."

Second Half of Chess Board

Chess was invented by Seeza during the rule of ghuppta family rule in sub-continent and with its invention a very interesting story is related....seeza went to the king with the game of chess,king liked game and gave seeza the right to name his prize for the invention.....seeza thought for a second and asked my lord"some grains of wheat"...king asked what do u mean?seeza asked my lord,fill the squares of chess with grains but according to my formula which is that for the first square of the chess board, he would receive one grain of wheat , two for the second one, four on the third one,eight on fourth on and so on, doubling the amount each time untill the last 64 column. The ruler, arithmetically unaware, quickly accepted the inventor's offer, even getting offended by his perceived notion that the inventor was asking for such a low price, and ordered the treasurer to count and hand over the wheat to the inventor.....when the mathematicians of king reached at the end of fourth row the wheat of grains in whole country got finished.....when the treasurer took more than a week to calculate the amount of wheat, the ruler asked him for a reason for his tardiness.treasurer explained that it would take more than all the assets of the kingdom to give the inventor the reward but they were unable to tell king exact amount of grains a 64 squares will take....this was approximated by Bill gates after 3500 years he says that if we put nineteen zeros in front of 1,this amount is the total amount of grains a 64 squares of chess will contain...according to bill gates if we put 1 billion grains in one container then we will need 18 billion containers to reach total amount and to count those grains we will need 2 million years......now what happens to inventor of chess seeza,well,when king reaches on fourth row he ordered seeza to arrest and further he was killed and that's how inventor of chess died.